we dreamt of this

I know, I know, I disappeared. When things get really tough - I withdraw. I go quiet. I implode.

But today there were these 2 little moments that I don't want to forget. So I must record them here.

These moments melted my heart a little bit and lifted me from that blue place I seem to be swimming in so often.

So this evening I was holding Skittle and rocking him round the living room hoping to eek him out for another 20 minutes before tea time, when hubs came over and put his arms round us both and we stood in front of the twinkly Christmas tree and had a family hug. And I was aware and I felt. I embraced the moment and let it be.

And earlier this morning something similar happened...hubs and skittle were laughing and playing on the bed while I tidied and as he looked over at them enjoying one another I couldn't help but sigh a happy sigh and say to hubs...

We dreamt of this.